I have found myself in a tricky situation here...
There is so much I want to do, so much I want to own...places I want to see...
Yet spending money on myself... I can not do it...
Let me give you an example so you understand what I am dealing with each and every day and why life in Second Life can be a living hell for me as it is easy to overspend....
Let us say I buy a new gaming system.... we pick.... the wii... no no special reason for that pick...
I buy all i need to play and a couple of games that seem cool... but after a few days when the big hype has gone over it strikes me that I am feeling down again and even worse feeling sad because I spent so much money on myself.... But it gave me happiness for a while....
Travel you say? See the world? no... I can't ...
I tend to find the bad side of any place that others would find so wonderful or great....
and during my entire trip I look up how much money I have wasted on myself .... even if I have fun for the moment I get quickly sad....
so what I am basically trying to tell you here is that I am split...
my world is twisted I am so confused..... and scared .... I know where it all leads...
I know it will all sound random but..... one part of me wants a new PC, a few gaming systems and maybe a few games to play (and maybe a few friends to play with) and the other part just wants to go hide somewhere dark....
I play very few games as I am shy person and don't really dare approach someone if I need to get help with a quest or something like that and I never have the PATIENCE to learn to be a good player in the class I choose to be....
Right now I am feeling so very extremely down.... I just wish I could get off this stinking world that chaos rules and go to some world were order rules.... somewhere I will find peace....
I am playing LOTRO alone because I do not dare to ask for group and alone it is so meh...
Being alone in life SUCKS! If you have someone you can curl up with and be with... for gods sake DO THAT BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Life is short, way much shorter then you would think....
If you hold someone dear, tell them.
If you love someone, show it to them and tell them you do.
If you can hug someone, do it alot!
Don't just sit there and read this crap.....go hug someone...
I wish... I had someone to hug right now
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If you hold someone dear, tell them.
If you love someone, show it to them and tell them you do.
If you can hug someone, do it alot!
Wise words Mira.
Good friends are hard to come by, but they're the only thing makes life worth living.
ty abel :)
Mira...
You are my best SL friend...
I'm going to try to stop doing SL again...remember I tried before...but I only made it a couple of weeks...
It's too addicting for me for one thing...I neglect my RL responsibilities too much when I do SL...
Another reason is I get myself into trouble because I don't know how to say no...when I'm dancing and drinking and having a good time I let myself get talked into doing things I shouldn't...then I feel terribly guilty and afraid...because I know that person will be looking for me the next time they see me on...
Another reason is that my boyfriend doesn't like me doing it...and I love him Mira...I do...
You've been such a good friend to me Mira and I'll miss you terribly...but please wish me luck...
Ani
I wish you the best of luck!
Take care of yaself now Ani and do drop in to visit my blog once in a life time to tell me how it goes!
and I am gonna miss you too!
You better take good care of yourself or I will go evil... or something... lol
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